Dear Diary,
These past few weeks have been the hardest of my life. I really wish there were someone I could talk to. Adam and I haven’t exactly been on the best of terms since we had to move. I don’t know if he’ll ever trust me again. In a way, I can’t blame him. I’ve really wrecked his life. I feel so stupid. Adam just doesn’t understand the effect that Serpent had on me. He was so irresistible – I felt like I couldn’t help myself.
I keep reliving that moment when I first looked down and realized I was naked. Then I glanced over at Adam and realized he was thinking the same thing. For the first time since we met, I couldn’t look him in the eyes. We had never before felt awkward around each other. Now we feel that way a lot of the time. Even though God gave us real clothes to replace those useless fig leaves, I still feel so…exposed – not just on the outside, but even more, on the inside.
I never used to think about how I looked to Adam. I always knew that he loved me and thought I was the most beautiful thing God had ever made. Now I find myself wondering if he really loves me and finds me attractive. Does he wish God hadn’t given me to him?
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